The Kitchen Light Actin' All Strobe is Killin' Me

I glance over
it's doing it again.

It takes me back to
to the psych ward.

Lack of sleep
staring up.

Pretending not to
hear in stereo
neighboring high pitched
screams
followed by
immediate silence
of the Great Needle.

The one that takes your
soul along with
yourself and your screams.
I'll be goddamned
if I'm going back there again.

As the light
flickers on
I take a new journey
down the philosophical path
as to why the light
keeps changing it's mind.

Maddening, really.
I wish it would
just shut up
and sleep
so I could.

Then my mind
wanders back
to clubbing
with my friends
in the 80s
when music
meant everything to us,

and flashing lights
didn't mean crazy.

I shut the light
like a door-
slammed it
in fact.

There.

I'm back to my
present
where none of it
really matters
anymore
in my today.

 




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